Maybe this is where I begin…

because this isn’t the end, it feels like we’re beginning again.

I’ve gone back and forth on starting this.

Mostly because I wasn’t really sure where to begin. It really doesn’t feel like the beginning anyway. But where I am today doesn’t make sense without everything that came before

So here we are…

I’ve shared so much of my life over the years. So much more than I ever imagined I would…maybe too much. But the funny thing is that people can watch your life for years and years and still never really know your story.

You see the moments. You don’t always get the whole picture. The reality after the camera is off. The prayers that are still being prayed. The questions that didn’t have answers. The little decisions that slowly changed everything. That changed me.

I’ve been thinking about that a lot lately.

Because when I look at my life today, nothing happened the way I thought it would. Not my faith. Not my marriage. Not my health. Not the businesses Marky and I have built. Not the dreams we’re still holding onto.

I feel like there are still so many parts of me I’m figuring it out.

Maybe I always will be. Maybe that’s just changing.

But somewhere along the way, I stopped sharing what was on my heart. Maybe because I just didn’t have the answers. And I still don’t.

So maybe that’s what this is. Somewhere to tell more…

The things that changed me.

The things that I’m leaving behind.

The things I’m still figuring out.

Maybe someday this will feel like a book that’s still being written.

For now…

I just wanted a place where this could live because this isn’t the end, it feels like we’re beginning again.